Posted by headachequeen on November 11, 2003, at 10:48:20
In reply to re: the benefits of topamax, posted by TexasChic on November 11, 2003, at 8:34:13
First, my apologies for posting the reply to
Texas Chic twice... this computer hates me <s>
and said the message had not been sent...That said...
does the weight loss factor in Topomax know when
to quit?
See, I said it was a dumb question and when you
stop laughing, please, someone let me know?
A while ago I lost twelve pounds in a week...
this week past I lost six...
Most days food holds no interest for me...
yoghurt in the morning so that I have something
in the way of food to take with the anti-seizure
meds and a cup or two of coffee to try and stay
awake during our theory session and our first
practical session;
lunch is coffee and maybe another container of
yoghurt, perhaps fruit instead if someone looks
at me too weirdly or a small salad if we are
indoors ...
I am simply not interested in food...
Taste is not affected. Food tastes all right; I
simply do not want it..
The other day our group decided to celebrate our
successes by going into a nearby town for dinner
and drinks (oh yeah, I couldn't wait to have a few
drinks with the guys...make mine club soda LOL)
The restaurant was great for a little town in the
middle of nowhere... and the food smelled and
looked great as the waitresses took it past us to
other tables... especially to people who have
existed on soggy sandwiches in the field in the
rain for a lot of lunches and suppers ... it
looked good to me and smelled good to me, but I
didn't want any of it... steak, seafood, prime
rib... I finally ordered, a steak and salad --
ate the soup that came with it, and some of the
salad then took the steak back to my dogs...
I keep hearing the words anorexia and bulemia
when people think I am not listening or cannot
hear... I know they think I need help...
I do not want to tell these people with whom I
work on a day to day basis in these classes that
I have epilepsy... that carries its own taint...
my epilepsy is not a factor in what I am doing;
it does not weaken my ability to get the job done
and it occurs only when I am asleep and we do not
sleep on the job no matter how tired... and no
matter the side effect I would not sleep on the
job that is why there are thermoses for coffee...
so I do not want to explain the meds to these
strangers with whom I live and work for these
three weeks ... and here I am discussing them
with you strangers I will never meet LOL...
I am NOT trying to starve myself into losing more
weight... can't afford to: have already gone
through the wardrobe and hit the panic button at
the cost of replacing the clothes that will not fit
and cannot be taken in...
The combination of the two meds is working to
control the headaches and the seizures...
the psychologist is managing to control or manage
or whatever it is psychologists do, the
personality disorder that was confused with
depression by my doctor... so things are going
well in many ways... so I do not want to monkey
with the status quo...
but I have visions of waking up one day and being
a walking skeleton...
here I am taking an advanced course to enable me
to do strenous things in my field... I have to be
able to scramble up and down hills for hours, to
keep going regardless of terrain and length of
time, and weather, packing my equipment,if
need be with my dog on my back in some cases, and
he weighs 85 pounds and has not finished filling out...
and and and...
I need energy and while the extra weight I packed
around for years meant this was never a
possibility for me... for that matter the
emotional baggage got in the way at times too...
if I become a faded shadow, I am just as useless
as I was when I was competing with the Good Year
blimp...so I need to know: does it stop????
what happens???
and stop laughing....<g>
I am serious... does this stuff know when to stop...
or do I have to stop taking it one day then go
to an increase in Tegritol and a return to the
migraines and become useless and unable to do the
things I love to do because I am shutting myself
in a darkened room...
ride ride the carousel and reach for the gilded
ring.. never winning, to start again
Life is a circular thing...I want to stop being the headache queen forever...
poster:headachequeen
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