Posted by stacia on November 11, 2003, at 23:08:25
Ok - A little history: diagnosed at different times with different forms of Bipolar Disorder, Generalized form of Social Phobia, anxiety related delayed onset type insomnia, ADHD, recovered from anorexia (purging type), and a former self-mutilator
Current meds: Gabapentin 1200mgs, Adderall 30mgs, Seroquel 50-100mgs
(previously paxil, prozac, celexa, zoloft, sonata, ambien)My problem is that I can pretend (at least for limited time periods) to be happy and normal, but I'm not. I cannot express sadness or anxiety etc. I mean I don't show it to anyone. Instead I pretend all day and then lose it at night once I'm alone. I know something needs to be changed in my meds, but I can't even let my guard down for my DR. I go in there, and I act like a normal person but tell him I'm depressed or anxious etc - but because I don't seem it, I feel like I couldn't possibly be taken seriously. Sometimes I want to be IP more than anything else. I just don't know anymore, if I can prentend to be ok, can I really be all that depressed?
At any rate, I was wondering if anyone knew of any meds that helped them w/ depression and anxiety other than the mainstreams. (I'm excited that they finally submitted the NDA for Pregablin) I cannot take SSRIs and could not deal with the weight gain from the first line mood stabilizers(lithium Depakote) Considering my issues with weight, weight gain is not a minor side-effect for me. Sorry I've been going on for so long. I just don't know what to do, hell...I'm not even sure how I feel or what I think. Thanks.
Stacia
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