Posted by tai daluna on November 16, 2003, at 7:15:25
In reply to Re: Ecstasy and anxiety anyone?, posted by NorthEven on November 15, 2003, at 16:44:46
hey... i found that MDMA and MDA (some of the versions of e: there are over a dozen different concoctions) helped my anxiety-- speed (meth amphetamine) did not; absolutely pushed me over the edge, actually. i'm guessing that your e was more speed than e. sucks when that happens. in the future, if there is a future-- don't take tabs, only caps; split caps open; if it smells like licorice and is soft, clumpy, sorta yellowy and DOESN'T burn your mouth, it's safe. btw, i hate drug dealers: liars and theives w/ no one to answer to.
but if you're on AD's you can't get high on e anyway, so why bother?
myself, i've not touched e in ages and ages...
e really helped me learn that there was a place in the world where i did not have to feel terrified and sad. i had never been so happy and relaxed as i was the first time i took e. the feeling has stayed w/ me always. it is often a comfort to me, to know i am capable of such joy. sometimes i can feel it bubble up for no reason. i didn't even know how to smile before i started raving, let alone feel comfortable enough to look someone in the eye.
that said, i suggest you be super careful messing around w/ your chemistry. later i got lost in a long speed addiction: the anxiety from that was terrible and insane and lasted a long, long time. my last meth binge was in october of 2002 and it took me 6 months to recover. i seriously thought my heart was broken and was going to give out on me at anytime. so, 6 visits to the clinic and a couple of crystal clear ECG's later, i finally admitted that maybe i was anxious!!!! effexor saved my butt, then drove me crazy, but that's N/A.peace.
tai
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