Posted by dagon on November 16, 2003, at 22:48:13
In reply to Re: Weaning from Effexor - Nightmares, posted by Alara on September 5, 2002, at 4:23:39
Ow my god. On a delicate time in my life, -honestly- faced with the continued pressure of a bordy-schizofrenic wife who has all but grown asexual I have drifted into the arms of to friends who embrace me and accept me for what I am and what my needs are, sexual and other. I had already been reducing my Effexor dosage but dammit, right this weekend I was visiting my friends and I discovered I had forgotten the red "Matrix Pills"...
150mg and whammo, down to zero in 3 days.
It may be a good thing, going cold turkey, but it is harder than *anything* I have ever done in my life. Being awake is no problem. The shivers and sensory warpspace vybes I can deal with, even with a knife in my kidney if need be, but the nighmares are beyond me.
As a side note, I *need* to get rid of these pills. I was frggin crying over a Fred Astaire movie yesterday on Engla's (my friend, swedish for Angel) birthday. Normally I watch torture.net for kicks, but now a silly 50s movie plot unfolds and I get tears in my eyes. Actually right now, telling this, my eyes tear all over. I need my old empathy again cause my wife has really bad issues, like scarification and deep inner rape trauma's and a fundamental issue with sexuality.
But the Nightmares, if EVER I was to believe that Demons had come from Hell to haunt me it was tonight. Being awake is doable. But sleeping is being harrowed, my mind being raped in ways I can't begin to describe.
It is a *massive* relief to know I am not the only one, that it isn't me or my guilt or me being actually in Hell or anything. And I have this guilt issue for I am seeking sex outside my marriage (my wife knows and feels shit about it).
Well, I have the hope it will be better soon. Thank you, all of you.
poster:dagon
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