Posted by musil on November 23, 2003, at 4:13:54
It's 4AM here and I just forced myself out of bed, not being sure that I am not still dreaming. It feels like the dreams have been going on all night, the kind of dream that cannot be escaped or woken - very much a dream within a dream etc where I was confident I was awake only to find that I was either: 1)awake and had broken from reality 2)still dreaming, god I hoped so, but couldn't get out of the dream. Forced myself to get up and take the dog out and smoke a cig. at 4:15. The dreams kepts haunting me outside in the dark and I felt myself nodding in the lawn chair and waking again to more breaks from reality. The dog pulling on the leash (his name is Henry) didn't even convince me that there was a dog there. The dreams consisted of being somehow crippled with a lurching walk (I DO have severe back problems) but I was wearing blue shorts and a white t-shirt, no shoes, and trying to get back to a safe place but realizing that I wasn't there yet,rather I realized I was in a place where people were watching over me but the nurses/MDs doppleganged in my dreams to men in suits or women in Jehovah's Witness garb while I woke up in their midst in the middle of a spoken prayer.
I COULD NOT WAKE UP AND AM NOT SURE AT THIS TIME IF I AM WOKEN UP EVEN AS I TYPE. AM ON:
DIAZEPAM:20mg
Lex: 20mg
Suboxone 2x8mg
Flexeril: 20 mgand right now think I am pedaling a bicycle that is disintegrating as I ride it, so I hold onto the shiny parts and backtrack to look for the pedals and wheels so I can continue to ride back to my group home.
All of this is absolutely unreal because I have a job and a family and (obviously) a dog, they are all sleeping now and I am nodding off and immediately warp away from reality (I think this keboard is real on my WallStreet G3) but it could be part of the dream.
Has anyone ever experienced these types of dreams before?
Help.
poster:musil
thread:282742
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