Posted by babak on December 10, 2003, at 14:04:03
In reply to Re: D-cycloserine, posted by Notalis on December 10, 2003, at 12:41:13
Actually when my madness first started I was living in Paris at the time and I had only been speaking French for two years. So I know the feeling but I managed to find an English Psychoanalyst in Paris. You might be able to do the same. Anyway when I lost my job my analyst agreed that I should come back to UK as I no longer had full health insurance which came with the job and an English psychoanalyst in Paris is very expensive.
Anyway I must admit that therapy helped a great deal in learning to cope with my illness but it never managed to find where the roots of the “problem” were/are. But it did get rid of a lot of the confusion surrounding it. I don’t think there is a root to my problem as such. My mother has similar symptoms and so did her father, so I think a lot of it is hereditary. It is just that mine came to head because of a set of underlying circumstances. Basically in my case there was a last straw and broke the camel’s back where it wasn’t the case for my mother and her father. You could put that down to a thousand and one things; modern live, over education, roots displacement or any other hype jargon that have come and gone over the past twenty years. Anyway the problem is that broken backs are not easily healed, even when all the weight is removed from them; that is what the therapy did.
I have somewhere in my system a fault which is a source of irrational anxiety. All the medications try to tackle this by dampening the secondary effects of anxiety which used to be done by my own psyche before my breakdown. In doing so they also dampen all the good stuff as well and that manifests itself in depression, which again is what my own psyche used to do before and that was why I was depressed even before my breakdown. This is fundamentally the whole basis of western medicine, i.e. in 90% of time they treat the symptoms rather than the disease. From what I have managed to understand from the research stuff on the web, D-cycloserine prevents the anxiety from being produced in the first place and thereby should have little side-effects in the way of creating depression or dampening my enthusiasm for life. However none of this is for sure and the only proof of the pudding is still in eating it.
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