Posted by CrazyMe on December 12, 2003, at 0:05:51
In reply to Does anyone have Avoidant Personality Disorder?, posted by billym on December 11, 2003, at 13:36:26
"...What I experience is avoidancy -- and I've had it all my life. It is an adverse, fear-based reaction to intrapersonal social ineraction and intimacy. I cannot function in groups. I become detached, numb and removed. I have an extreme fear that I will not be accepted. Ultimately, I have no personality around others. I am extremely inhibited, to the point I am stone-faced and completely quiet in a social setting. I am extremely self-conscious. It is as if your soul and essence as a human is being judged and damned by others while you are in their presence. It is a horrific psychic pain.
I am detached and distant from others. I rarely experience joy or "fun" in being with friends or in groups. I cannot 'let go' and be myself. ...."
This is an actual condition? I thought it was just my life! However I am lucky enough to be able to function within groups, I just never belong. I can do what I need to do, even take charge if I have to, but I always feel that if I disappeared the group would just self heal and not notice my absence. I have only one friend and I feel that I would have lost her long ago except that she is 2000 miles away. My divorce was final in 2000 and I have yet to date. Not for lack of wanting to, but for some reason I find it difficult to even discover the places where people go to meet each other. I can't remember the last time I had sex - which is rather pointless anyway since I have never experienced good sex in the first place.
But you are telling me that the fact that I am alone and cannot make or keep friends is an actual medically treatable condition?
Do they supply singles ad's with the medication?
I had a therapist once tell me that I should attend AA meetings as a way to meet people. I refused for various reasons (I hate walking into rooms full of strangers) but foremost among them was that I had enough problems already. I didn't want to meet someone who had more!
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