Posted by Lyrical13 on January 6, 2004, at 16:59:59
In reply to Re: lyrical 13 and hypomania » Lyrical13, posted by helenag on January 6, 2004, at 16:16:52
Hi
No problem at all about going off track..I do it constantly..I think that's how we arrived at the hypomania subject! But that's what I love about this site (and the various babbles) People talk about all different things that ring true for different people.re: alcohol. I don't drink. I never have really. I haven't even been drunk. I think I had a little bit of a buzz once in high school after maybe 2 drinks but that's it. I never really liked the taste of anything except margaritas and all the sugary drinks where you can't taste the alcohol. Wine gives me a headache. I'm hypoglycemic and alcohol really messes up my blood sugar so I rarely drink at all any more. Every once in a great moon I might have a margarita. the last time I remember having one was last June when I was visiting relatives out of town. Before that? Who knows..it's been several years. However, I do have a history of alcoholism in my family...my grandpa. My dad doesn't really drink..well, never used to. Now he's a social drinker with the guys down at the yacht club but I've only seen him drunk once in my life...on New Year's Eve when I was about 12. I think I never have gotten drunk because I never wanted to lose control. I was too worried about the terrible things that might happen to me if I wasn't in complete control and aware of my surroundings, etc etc.
RE: your docs comments about your alcoholism.. I think they're very rude and judgemental and condescending. Does he say things like that all the time? That's not his business really...to make you feel bad about something that you probably already feel bad about. I commend you for all the hard work I know you must have done and are doing to recover. Addictions are a very difficult thing. There are going to be setbacks. It's a chemical thing..you're fighting your own body chemistry just like you are with depression, anxiety etc. I have read that alcohol and drugs can permanently affect brain chemistry, but what's the point of shoving that down your throat? And there's no proof of causality. You could from birth have been destined to have difficulty with depression, anxiety, etc. Besides that, it could be the other way around...many many many people drink or drug to medicate their depression! Or to feel less anxious. The things your pdoc is saying sound abusive to me (I know I dont' have a whole picture but just the few things you've mentioned) You might think about finding a different doc if he says things like that or other hurtful things on a damaging basis. The pdocs job is to help you, not judge you.
Ok...off my soapbox now! Also, I'm glad you mentioned that about geodon. I have heard others say that it helped their bipolar.
Well, good luck on your road to recovery on all fronts! And just remember, don't let the turkeys get you down!
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