Posted by socialdeviantjeff on February 17, 2004, at 20:13:32
I've ben diagnosed with: Atypical Depression with psychotic features, (auditory and visual hallucenations)Generalized Anxiety Disorder and OCD.
I'm musing over my diagnosis. There seem to be some overlaps with other disorders such as: Bipolar 2 (Dysphoric hypomania), Borderline Personality Disorder, (Less the attachment issues) Schitzoaffective Disorder and Schizotypal Personality Disorder.
As far as paranoia, I have it in spades. I experience delusional thinking, but I can rationalize over time that it's not the appropriate reality. That diesn't change the fact that the delusion exists in my mind on some level, but I can usually diffrientiate between my delusions and reality. I do have issues with believing that others can read my thoughts and/or I can read theirs. Despite this, I have a firmer foothold on reality than a true schitzophrenic or psychotic. These thoughts are most predominant during a depressive episode.
On Hallucenations, I hear constant music, footsteps, doors opening and closing, I think I'll hear me being discussed in a bad light. I also have a voice that will say derisive things to me, about me or others around me. These occur regardless of mood.
On mood, When I'm not in a depressive episode my mood is still dark. Suicidal ideation occurs. Lots of hotility and irritation. Significant emotional swings but only between dysphoria and emotional flatness and apathy.
I guess I'm just wondering how correct or how incorrect my diagnosis is and why....
I also just started Abilify, 5 mg in the morning. Considering I react so badly and paradoxically to most meds I hope this works out.
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