Posted by PsychoSage on February 19, 2004, at 10:31:13
In reply to Re: Dysphoria- it's your environment, not you » utopizen, posted by Chairman_MAO on February 18, 2004, at 20:52:56
> I cannot recall the last time I heard a more impassioned articulation of the ethos of a healthy attitude toward drug use. An extremely high (in the spiritual sense) psychologist I had told it all to me this way: "Which model makes more sense in examining your life: neurotransmitters, or feelings and reasons?" I am not sure that I'll ever know how a philosophy major like myself ever got into drug abuse, for I am acutely aware of the mind-body problem and the absurdity of hard materialism. Oh, wait, I wanted to run away from myself ... so what did it matter what I knew then, you dig?
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> I used to be so well-written and well-spoken. I wrote 20-page papers in 400-level philosophy classes as a sophomore! I was nominated for philosophy undergrad of the year but got disqualified because I was too young! My psychopharm. professor wanted to get me on the "fast track" to John's Hopkins! Man, I'm all about drugs now, but I used to GET OFF ON CONSCIOUSNESS ALONE! Psychopharmacology is fantastic, but only if one doesn't ignore the PSYCHE part!
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> I now feel that I let this precious flame at best atrophy through excessive drug use and self-isolation, and at worst lost it forever through neurotoxic experiments with psychostimulants. My only consolation is knowing that I could someday better the lives of others through my own mistakes.
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> And who knows, when I dive back into school, I might find that fleeting rapture again ...
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> To the one seeking euphoria: using drugs to ENHANCE your life is healthy. Using them to FILL your life will create hell. Be thankful you cannot recapture that euphoria; it's your soul telling you that you're on a better path. Seek euthymia, not euphoria.
What's euthymia? I am interested in hearing more about you, utopzian. It sounds like our stories our quite similar. Without obnoxiously repeating myself, i have posted the ghist of my story on here in some places. I'm always obsessed with my mind and thinking. I am not implying you do, but you sound like you have an acute awareness about philosophical issues regarding the mind and being. I abused psychostimulants {mostly illicit} at university, and it screwed me over.
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