Posted by snapper on March 6, 2004, at 23:41:02
Does anyone know if it even possible at all to ever feel *normal again* 14 years of depression anxiety social anxiety, bpII (mostly depressed!)
ocd, 6-7 hospital stays (none of which did any good) still feel suicidal everyday.... every anti-depressant you can think of or at least the ones that were half way tolerable...... I really want to hope that i'll have a life again!! I mourn my former life before the beast came to visit... my memory is horrible my sleep is not great 50 different psychophamacueticals along the way--ect
was effective for a while best i have felt in last 5 years but it;s effects are short lived --I don't know who I am any more (not from ect) i wish the fog would lift for even a day or 2 I know I'm just rambling but just needed to vent
thanks
Snapper
ps i did have some half way normal times in all those years, just nothing that was life affirming and sustainable .... I need some hope... my pdoc just wan'ts me to go to these day group sessions to be around poeple but being around a lot of poeple is really agitating... any how right now im at 50 mg of lamictal go to 100 mg on mon and 1 to 3 mg of K a day as needed thanks for reading or listening I know all of you are going through a lot of the same stuff bit God there has to be a break through somewhere does'nt there!!??
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