Posted by gigikay on March 13, 2004, at 9:00:29
In reply to Re: music in my head, posted by thinkfast on March 13, 2004, at 6:07:04
i was trying to think about how long this has been happening, but i really can't recall. i remember when "beauty and the beast" came out on video, i used to fall asleep as i visualized the movie and the music. that was how many years ago? 10?
anyhow, i think that there is a pattern... i tend to awfulize about things. death mostly. the death of my family (mainly children)... maybe the music is a way to drown out the bad thoughts. i "die" everytime i drive because i visualize getting into an accident, but the thoughts don't stop with just the accident. i can picture tragedy. so to combat that i also count road mileage, calculate distance, whatever. i do have a little obsession with numbers.
these behaviors just provide a barrier to the other really bad thoughts so i guess it is somewhat of a defense mechanism.
any thoughts?
poster:gigikay
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