Posted by Racer on May 1, 2004, at 17:43:43
In reply to Re: Chemist, wanna muse on suggestions?, posted by SLS on May 1, 2004, at 16:23:38
What you've said is pretty scary, since none of those sound like anything I'd want to deal with. (MAOIs would not be on my top ten list, because of the dietary restrictions. Honest to God, I'd rather die than give up sour cream, pepperoni pizza, good cheese and a glass of wine. You know?)
Actually, that's probably not a parenthetical topic. Right now, I'm trying to get my mind around the idea that I'll have to take these damned drugs for the rest of my life, rather than taking them for the two to five years post-remission that we've been looking at in the past. The constellation of side effects involved takes on a different picture under those circumstances. The dietary restrictions involved in taking MAOIs are pretty close to out of the question for me, though. Even if I could do it short term -- and I'm not sure I wouldn't be attempting suicide over that alone -- there's just no way I could do it long term.
Your post did clarify some things for me, though -- largely about the anxiety side of it. This is where separating the psychopharmacology from the rest of the psychological issues really worries me. My therapist is probably coming to see that I hide my anxiety pretty well, but it's so strongly ingrained in me that fear must be hidden, lest it make me a target for worse, that I have a real problem admitting to any fears. I think, up until now, my pdoc hasn't managed to learn that about me. Maybe talking to him about that as a starting point would be a good idea?
(Especially since he considers me to be a "melancholic" depressive -- sure, but with a hell of a lot of anxiety. If I look motionless, it's because I'm using all my energy to hide my fear, you know?)
Thanks again, Scott. I appreciate your help.
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