Posted by Jubei on May 5, 2004, at 18:57:14
In reply to Nothing Helps, posted by griswald on May 5, 2004, at 17:06:27
I don't know if this will help much, but I have read many times that depression can be anger turned inward. Often times people get angry at things that have happened to them in the past but never express the anger so it builds up and often leads to depression. I don't like medicine but I know the feeling of wanting security in knowing that there may be this drug out there that will work and that you can live life normally again. But this really isn't the case. I've met a lot of people in my life that have been on medicine, and from what I've experienced, they only got better because they worked out psychological issues with themselves that are often painful. I remember when I went into the hospital the first time I had horrible panic attacks and was scared I was going crazy or that I was going to lose control. I looked for comfort in talking to people and I liked hearing from them that I would get better and that you ahve to wait for the medicine to start working. Well, medicine dosen't work for me and maybe it does for other people but I know there is something wrong with the genetics debate because everyone I have ever met or read about that has an illness of the mind has gone through abuse in one form or another. I don't think genetics has anything to do with it, I do not believe people have been evolving for thousands of years and yet still harbor a latent design flaw that dictates a precursor to a destruction of personal survival or the survival of species. I ahve done study in primal therapy and I believe it makes the most sense so far, but I believe that anyone who truly gets better does so on there own despite doctors and friends and books and whatnot.
I could be wrong of course, but my isntinct says otherwise and so does my experience. You will get a better understanding of yourself if you write a lot about your life in the past and the present. You may discover things that have been bothering you for so long but you tried to forget them because facing them is too painful. But unfortunately the only way it seems to heal the pain is to face it even theough it is the hardest thing in the world to do.> I have been suffering bipolar II cycles for the last 20 years. Nothing helps. Every time I take an antidepressant I go hypomanic or can't sleep. I feel like its never going to get better. These drugs make me nervious, tired, dumb, jumpy, cycling and irritable. And I've had some of the best docs in the United States. I was taking lamictal, which did help with the depression, but it made me incredibly irritable and caused insomnia, which in turn made me cycle. If I have even a small amount of an SSRI I'm nuts for two days. Depakote, Neurontin, all of the others have very little intended effect but lots of side effects. I don't think its going to change. Wellbutrin seems to help with the depression but now I can't sleep again, even when I take 10mg in the morning. I just don't know what to do.
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