Posted by rvanson on May 16, 2004, at 1:14:14
In reply to social phobia insomnia, benzophobic dr., HELP ME, posted by erik98225 on May 15, 2004, at 5:01:07
> I have social phobia and have always had a heck of a time getting to sleep. It takes a long time to fall asleep, but once I am asleep I sleep like a baby.
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> A few months back I discovered that 3-4 beers in the evening makes me fall asleep fast and gives me a feeling of peace like nothing else can.
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> I was stupid enough to discuss this with my doctor, so now I have alcohol dependence in my medical records.
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> While drinking I gained 30 pounds, hated the hangovers, and decided last week that this needs to stop.
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> I am now two days into the horror that is alcohol withdrawal.
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> I have been awake for 37 hours.
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> Alcohol withdrawal will make your worst case of the flu feel like an orgasm.
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> I know I deserve it -- it's my punishment for beating up my liver -- and I know it passes, but the thing is, I drank alcohol because it worked.
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> I am convinced that I have the "overactive brain" component of alcohol dependence (I don't have a link, but I know I read about it on this board... I drank alcohol in an attempt to calm down the brain to a more normal state.)
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> Benzos are alcohol pills, and alcohol is a liquid benzo.
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> I have mentioned this to my doctor many, many times, and told him that the drinking was a desperate attempt to self-medicate, but he simply WILL NOT write a prescription for benzos "because they are addictive".
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> Yes, they are addictive. Big deal. Would you deny morphine to a terminally ill cancer patient just because he might get addicted to it? And isn't it better to be addicted to benzos than addicted to alcohol?
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> I take Paxil 20mg. It was effective for the social phobia until the drinking rendered it useless, but it never did anything for me in terms of helping me fall asleep.
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> Can anyone knowledgeable give me some information I can discuss with my psychiatrist
> to convince him that a benzo is right for me? Anyone have any suggestions for a psychiatrist who is willing to prescribe benzos? (I'm in the Bellingham, Washington area)
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> Any comments, suggestions, or information would be greatly appreciated. I'm at my wit's end here.
First off, dump your doctor. Forget about him/her changing thiers minds...it wont happen.Most docs these days are HMO docs and care more about making $$$ and staying out of a courtroom, then about your QOL (quality of life).
Now the hard part begins.
You need to find a doc that wont use the records of the old doc to keep you off of benzos.
I hope you like lying and falsifying your medical history, but that is what it will take here, if you want to get on some real medication that will help, aka a benzodiazapine.
And stay off the booze ASAP.
I know it feels helpful, but its not in the long-term.
Sad to say that it comes to this, but thats what the American HMO system has done to medical care.
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