Posted by BarbaraCat on May 21, 2004, at 19:51:01
In reply to Re: New to Board: Frustrated with Lamictal » BarbaraCat, posted by katia on May 20, 2004, at 23:16:26
>>Life coaching program. I ain't ready!!!!! You can imagine all the issues that come up around that - anxiety, I'm no good, I'm stupid, what can I do to "help" anyone? etc. etc. AND WHEN? do I find the time? yikes.....
**That is alot to bite off at once. Deadlines are hard!! - and being a landlady on top of it all! Well, you just have to find one client, that first one, and the rest will be gravy. You KNOW you're gonna be great at this so I wouldn't stress about that other stuff. Old tapes. You've been through alot and it's not everyone who can or wants to support and accompany another through those scary places, so you'll do fine. Oh, here are two wonderful books that might help: "The Places that Scare You" and "When Things Fall Apart" by Pema Chodron.
> >>That's so interesting that your downs are more quiet and manageable w/o meds. I'm wondering about all these bipolar stuff. I've been reading a lot lately about Sensory Integration Disorder (SID or DSI) and also reading a book called "The Highly Sensitive Person" and god how I can relate to this more than the bipolar thing. I wonder if my bipolar thing is a symptom of SID/DSI.
**This is the first I've heard of SID/DSI. I definitely want more info!! I got the forum url from your other email and will visit the site, but if you have anything else to share, I'm all ears (or eyes in this case).
I too wonder about the BP thing, that it's really an overamped nervous system and overreaction to stress. But I guess when you come down to it, what's the diff? It's all due to stress IMHO. I sure know that those godawful mixed states depressions are some wild chemical storms. Time will tell if being off meds makes a difference. I can go a long time with garden variety depression, but those screeching wailing banshee nightmare things I cannot take. I probably should have an anti-psychotic handy just in case cause those things are really scary and wear me down.
>>My immune system is down, I can tell because of a rare "cold sore" I get once every two years when I'm REALLY run down.
**I've got one of those pesky 'cold sores' that keep making the rounds on me lately. Sometimes I think (and have read in a number of sources) that much of what I/we deal with physically and emotionally are really pathogens. I could really sense a 'before and after' after I picked up some really weird bug in the late '80's at -- you'll love this -- a mud bath spa in Calistoga that eventually had health warrants against it.
>>I feel really tired a lot. Maybe Paxil?
**Could be. A friend recently upped her Paxil and is alot more tired and feeling swooshy.
>>Not sure which is worse - mental or physical pain as they both make every second a challenging torture. Are there any meds you can take?
**I'm not sure either. I think mental pain is worse but when I consider having a tooth drilled w/o novicaine I don't think so. There's really nothing that helps when I'm in the midst of a flare, which thankfully aren't so frequent as they were. I sometimes take hydrocodone but it's more to take my mind off things than anything and I don't like the constipation. Neurontin is supposed to help, but it really doesn't. The cyclical nature, the flu like aches and other fluey symptoms make me suspect it's viral. No one knows. I'm looking into Transfer Factor which is showing alot of promise for immune conditions (which fibro may or may not be), but it's expensive and you have to get the right kind that's targeted for the condition. I'm rapidly going broke from trying out all these wonder cures.
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> >>I thought St. John's acted on serotonin like ADs and bipolars should stay away from it?**It's supposed to help with fibro symptoms and I could use a mood boost as well. My husband keeps an eye out for my frenzies, like let's clean out the garage and plant a small organic farm and buy out Home Depot and become a prophesying mystic dance fiend, and, and, and... - not that he can do much about it. I usually don't get it until after the fact. No, that's not true. I know I'm heading there when I start sobbing at the meat counters and lobster tanks in the supermarkets. Maybe I will ask for a zyprexa script. - Barbara
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