Posted by cherylann on June 10, 2004, at 12:19:04
In reply to PLEASE READ!!, posted by pretty_paints on June 10, 2004, at 9:50:48
I think the first person who figures out WHY we get hit with these problems will be a super millionaire!
In the meantime, once you get stabilized on some meds your outlook will be better. You'll be able to step aside and look at the depression and say "wow, that sucked, but I feel so much better now."
For me I've always been depressed and anxious, but wasn't aware of it. When I hit my 30's severe panic and depression set in. Nothing bad was happening in my life, so can't say what triggered it.
I've been on meds since and recently tried to go off. I'm still off them and have found that I've changed quite a bit (I'm 41 now). I recognize the feelings when they're coming on, which is good in a way. I'm not afraid of them anymore. BUT, I'm also alienating people around me, just as you mentioned in your post. This is not the life we're meant to live. I'll probably go back on something soon.
When the meds start working, stay on them. You're too young to be battling such a thing at this point in your life. This is the time when you should be grabbing life and enjoying it with good friends and family. Relationships will come your way. My husband and I didn't realize how depressed I was til after we were married, which was a bummer because he was not prepared for it. Now he's educated on it and deals with it just fine. And really, if you think about it, it's not leprosy or anything.
Remember when you're feeling down that there are MANY of us just like you living our lives and thinking the same thoughts as you.
Sorry if I've rambled, and I hope I've said something useful. Please take care of your self and post here often if it helps.
Best wishes,
cherylann
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