Posted by t0xxx on June 12, 2004, at 15:19:05
In reply to Re: Serzone discontinuation in Aus = me cold turke, posted by Tony C. on June 12, 2004, at 9:49:49
Thought I'd check in and let you all know, just for the record, how the cold turkey process is going! I'm unsure how many hours now (calculating...) - and I have been taking a little bit of xanax (yesterday 1mg all up over the whole day - I don't feel too bad about that...) to take of the edge.
It's interesting having something taken away from you that had become a routine part of life, something I had learned to live with for better or worse!
I'm trying not to presuppose my responses, or be too dramatic about it, in order to be a blank slate so that I can trust what I feel.
My partner is a bit freaked out about it (seen my panic attacks, lived w/ my agoraphobia - not pretty! hehe) but I'm trying to normalise the situation, everything is the same, there's nothing going on here...
So, the last time I took a pill was about 72 hours ago, if my calculations are correct. Last night's sleep wasn't very deep - quite a bit of up and down, and strangeness, wierd dreams, feeling quite awake all night - early morning waking with high anxiety/verging on panic as I woke at about 5.30. Took .5 mg of xanax, feel calmer, and promise myself to keep a lid on the xanax - just 1 mg /day if poss and not beat myself up about it - I'll deal with the xanax later after I'm over the serzone trip. Dizziness/increased tinnitus are other effects, but I'm used 2 those, and can deal.
Hope it's sunny so I can go outdoors - need to normalise the outdoors so agraphobia doesn't get me.
Anyway, thought a diary of my journey through this might be useful for others. Mostly I'm trying not to be scared and just do it (not like nike, but nevertheless, do it!)
tx all
t0xxx
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