Posted by AMD on July 26, 2004, at 18:16:01
Folks,
My obsessing is getting out of control -- almost psychotic. The other day I ordered a burger from IN-and-OUT, and when I got it, I thought, what is that smell? It smelt like something fresh, like a housecleaning material. Anyhow, I proceeded to eat the burger, and immediately began worrying I'd eaten some cleaner on the burger, perhaps from the restaurant where it'd been made, or perhaps some other chemical ... and I am STILL obsessing over this, assuming I have brain damage from drinking chemicals on the burger, etc., and it's interferring with my ability to think. I didn't get sick from the burger or anything, but I keep thinking back to it and thinking, "I wish I hadn't had it, everything would be fine," and "now I'm brain damaged and unhappy," and basically thinking my life is over.
Arrrrrgggghhhhh!
I hope this brain fuzziness I'm feeling now is a result of the obsessing, not any actual damage. But I can't shake it! HELP! I want my life back, a life that doesn't consist of one good, happy week with one during which I obsess to the point of disability.
(My mood is not so bad, except I am finding it very hard to get this negative thought out of my head.)
So I'm on 80 mg of Celexa, with a diagnosis, too, of bipolar II, for which I'm on 200 mg of Lamictal.
My psychiatrist will probably switch me to Lexapro if I don't show improvement in the next few weeks. But after that, which drugs have shown efficacy in combatting this type of "crazy" obsessiveness? From all classes, but preferably something that won't make me stupid (e.g., most antipsychotics) or give me problems with memory (e.g., carbazepine [Trileptal]).
Input really appreciated...
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