Posted by ravenstorm on August 5, 2004, at 9:53:30
In reply to Re: rTMS solves all my problems but..., posted by Viszla on August 5, 2004, at 0:52:43
THANKS! I wish I had known about rTMS sooner. I went through horrendous paxil withdrawal last fall and ended up much worse than I was before I ever went on it.
I have been playing what feels like Russian roulette with meds ever since (and I've tried all the natural stuff too).
Currently I'm on 15mg of remeron, which isn't doing enough and I can't bump up on it because I get too sedated. I don't feel good on this drug at all, kind of detached and very tired all the time. So, now they have added WB which is making me anxious (which I wouldn't have thought possible because I'm taking remeron which had totally obliterated my anxiety) and is really killing my stomach.
My stomach is really the worst problem. I have a really weak stomach and almost all of these meds make me really sick.
Any how, if I had known about this stuff sooner (when I was really bad off this winter and unable to get on a drug) I would have done this in a heartbeat, especially the free clinical trials. But now that I'm at least not suicidal (Yes, I was suicidal for literally months after paxil and I had NEVER been suicidal before in my life) I'm afraid to go off the meds to do the trial. And if I pay for the treatments while on medication and I think it has worked and then I go through withdrawals to get off the meds, I'm afraid I'll end up screwed up again from the withdrawals. I know these meds are suppossed to balance your brain so you feel better after you get off of them. But there is a growing minority of us whose brains seem to get depleted by the drugs, or at least cause our brains not to function anymore after we stop taking them.
It just seems to me, it would be best to be off all meds before doing this, so that an unmedicated brain could be returned to normal. But I'm just too scared to do it right now.
I am going to contact both places anyway to get more information and see what they think.
I live in Madison, WI so chicago is definitely the closest but I like the website with Dr. Hutto and the fact that we "know" someone who has actually been treated by him.
A question for pfinsting (oh crud, I can't remember your ID--SORRY): when you did your original series of treatments, (they indicate on the website somewhere between 15-25 treatments are needed) how many treatments did you get per day? (Sorry if you answered this elsewhere!) Just wondering how much time I would have to take off of work.
Thanks!!
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