Posted by robot on August 12, 2004, at 0:24:28
In reply to Re: enjoyment, posted by linkadge on August 10, 2004, at 14:13:03
Im with you. I think there are not too many people that need to be on multiple meds. The mental side effects just seem to multiply, along with the worry about them becoming hard to ween yrself off of. Plus you dont know what med is doing what. My limit (as of now) is 2 ADs. We'll see if that lasts...
I have felt something like that fear, but not so sustained over a long period. For awhile it came and went. Thinking about it now makes me realize how far Ive come; so far yet to go, though.
I do still have what I can only call anxiety attacks, I guess. Everything just seems like abad idea, I dont know who I am or what to do with myself. I start thinking of suicide and violence like I want to hit something.
Yeah us biped mammals got it tough. Our pleasure system is more complex than those lucky reptiles. Like you said, it has some connection to the prefontal cortices but Im not sure what exactly. I dont think shrinkage or reduced activity is permanent, though (the # of receptor sites for receptors can increase). ANd I know that the hippocampus can actually grow new brain cells (contrary to long-standing medical belief).
I wish you well on your decision to quit the meds. Im just a novice at supplementation but my advice is contained in one of my other posts in this thread, if your interested. Psychobabble Alternative has alot of experts on it.> I can relate to you in some terms. I had a single, hypomanic episode, and ever since they brought be down from that I've been living in constant fear. The first time I took lithium it took away all confidence I had in myself. It put me into this neitherworld feeling where my mind never stops slowly wiserping to me, you don't know what you are doing everything you try, you will fail.
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