Posted by invisiblemanpa on August 12, 2004, at 8:33:36
In reply to Re: social phobia atypical depression, posted by pinky on August 12, 2004, at 6:47:55
Sounds like there are others out there just like me! I have been struggling with the same symptons for about 6 years and socail anxiety all of my adult life.....after trying numerous mixes I was started on Remeron...75 mg of Effexor, Ativan ..and..Temezapam for sleep...after about two weeks I felt the best that I had for years...ready to tackle the world and restart my career...I was able to interview, interact, exercise, etc...I accepted a position out of state in the hospitality industry in which I have my Masters...after two weeks of being back in chaos, facing the realism of bankruptcy...ie..not being able to rent, open a checking account, etc...plus the normal chaos of work...I could feel the darkness creeping up again and things started to shutdown..I could not focus, concentrate, very anxious..then I went out and did the old quick fix to make it go away and sat in my hotel room and binge drank and ended up in the er....now I am back, living with my Mother..faced my employer and quit and feel like worse than I did 6 months ago...I guess it will take time again to feel decent.....the darkness never goes away...the meds just push it deeper inside of us...and it is waiting for the right time to jump out again....well I will stay on the same med cocktail and pray for the best.....I can't even look at job boards now or imagine facing a new job like a did just a few weeks ago...
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