Posted by Alesa on August 13, 2004, at 17:52:01
In reply to Re: Maybe a babble convention...., posted by waki on August 11, 2004, at 18:30:53
A Babble Convention. Interesting! Can you imagine the signs and hotels at the convention advertising "Babble Convention"?? All outsiders would wonder "What the heck is a Babble?" They'd probably think that we just like to talk alot, or have a rare OCD where we just can't stop talking. And then they'd see the "Hi, I'm normal" signs, and think we're nuts. Which we are, but who cares, right? Everyone's nuts in their own way anyways.
Funny, I thought you were a woman too. I think it's your style of writing, which, by the way, is fantastic. You have a way of writing about your life and feelings, and describing the people and situations around you that's very unique, insightful and expressive. It's easy to follow and understand, and you don't ramble inscessantly, or lash out. I think you should write a book about your life when you're feeling better. Writing is also a key to good mental health, and a good method of therapy. It's great to write out your feelings, and your progress. Of course, this message board helps alot to in relating to others.
I really liked this statement that you wrote: "Maybe if people who are mentally ill collectively synergize with each other we can heal each other more rapidly". I truely believe that-support groups work. I think I feel better so quickly too because of this board. The healing of support and positive energy travels via the internet just as well as in real space and time.
I also believe people who are mentally ill possess unique insight of the world around them that mentally healthy people cannot comprehend. We are sensitive and aware of certain issues, feelings, intuitions and energies that exist. It has definately opened my mind. Most artists and songwriters have suffered some sort of mental illness.
Your words have helped me alot.
Thanks
Alesa.
> Who knows.....
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> Maybe if we all get past our obsticals we can all go on a cruise and meet. We can wear name tags that says "3 years of happiness", or sell bumper stickers that say "I am normal are you?".
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> My mother and I were talking today. She is so happy what she calls "haveing me back" that she cries everytime when she see's me now.
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> I am not even that well yet but I am well enough that she believes she got her son back.
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> She keeps secretly inviting one of her friends over at a time every time I visit her. I sit back when I go home and just shake my head as to what have a done to all these people.
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> Anyway, she keeps asking me questions what "they" doctors do with me every week at the treatment research center. She is so excited she wants to go with me and thank them. I told her there's no way a near middle age guy like me is going to parade my mother around the center to let her say thanks. We laughed. She said it was the first time we laughed that she can remember. After she laughs she cries, sort of bizzare really.
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> She believes that these medications are only partial of my improvement. She tells me my attitude appears to be improving, upbeat. She describes it as an "energy" or positive "ora" that seems to be contagious to others and improving everyday. She claims she see's a glow in my face that I can't see myself.
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> She says that when she introduces me back to her friends they feel better and want to know more about mental illnesses. It's to the point all her friends are comming out of the wood work saying they have childern that are bi polar, their husbands appear to be depressed, tehir edlery parents must be depressed. yadda yadda yadda.
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> I don't see it or feel it but I have to trust her. Maybe theres something to this energy?
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> Maybe if people who are mentally ill collectively synergize with each other we can heal each other more rapidly.
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> I have allot of patching up to do with family members and friends that I don't know where to start. I have walked away from family, friends and relationships for the last 25 years.
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> It's depressing to hear that I have hurt so many people because I abandoned all of them.
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> But the more I think about it, I think I answered my own question. I believe one starts to know depression is subsiding when others make remarks.
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> When you see others be happy because you are making them happy is the un measurable proof in the pudding.
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> Well I need to go know. I actually put myself on a committee to help build a float for a parade. I can't remember the last time I helped people out before.
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> Don't forget the cruise, maybe thats what we all need!
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