Posted by jujube on November 9, 2004, at 20:37:07
In reply to Re: Needing support » jujube, posted by katia on November 9, 2004, at 18:11:07
Katia,
I'm sorry that you are suffering. I am not
bi-polar, so I can only imagine what you are going through in terms of your depression, and my heart goes out to you. I, too, have experienced that feeling of darkness, and agree that it is very, very scary. It hit me like a ton of bricks when I was given an injection of Depo Provera. Everything in my life just went black, and I was on Effexor at the time because I was moderately depressed and anxious. So, I can relate to being on an AD and not having it work effectively when you fall into the pit. Although the Depo shot is wearing off, the depression won't lift. So, my pdoc has switched me to a TCA AD. I am a little nervous about taking it, but I can't go on like this much longer.I really think you should either call or get an appointment with your pdoc as soon as possible. You shouldn't have to suffer like this, and may require a med change or an dosage increase of your current med.
In the meantime, try to be strong (I know, easier said than done).
Take care.Tamara
> Hi,
> I could buy a box. I'll look into it after I crawl back into bed for awhile and regain strength. I'm bipolar; so I haven't done well on ADs and mood stabilizers don't really get the depression. maybe a sunbox would help.
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> I'm so cloudy today, I can't remember if I took my Paxil and so I just took it again and remembered I had. I'm actually worried the Paxil is making me crazy. I missed a dose a week ago and went through withdrawals; maybe that's contributing to my darkness. god it's a scary place to be in - it's totally gripping. I'm going to give it another day before I call my pdoc. This is powerful stuff that never seems to be affected by meds.
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> anyone ever hear of shamanic healing for mental illness?
> Katia
> > You are not alone. Many people experience depression or a worsening of their depression when the days start to get shorter and they are exposed to less sunlight. I am sure you are aware that it is a true disorder and is referred to as Seasonal Affective Disorder. You might want to invest in a sun simulator or a light box. It is a device that produces light equal in intesity to natural sunlight. It is supposed to be effective for people with SAD. Although I like this time of year, I use one, and it seems to make a difference in my energy and sleep patterns. I have seen some posts in the past while about light therapy and sun simulators. It might be worth your while to do a search and see what others have said about it.
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> > How long have you been on Paxil? Perhaps you need to talk to your doctor about increasing your dose during the darker months.
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> > Hang in there, and try to take advantage of whatever sun and bright days there are. I wish you all the best, and hope you find relief soon.
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> > Tamara
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> > > Geez...anyone else feeling the clutches of depression since the days are shorter and since the election?
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> > > I'm really feeling it coming on and it's scary. I'm still on Paxil at 12.5mg and Trileptal at 450mg and Seroquel at 12.5mg, but this feeling is so familiar and I haven't felt it since last year and the years before. But the difference is I'm on meds and I STILL feel it. I just want to curl up in bed all day and am trying my hardest to not feed the depression. I feel it physically - reduced appetite, feeling like I want to throw up/tightness in throat and cry.
> > > Oh boy...this sucks. WB doesn't work for me, effexor, zoloft, celexa, nor serzone and it looks as though maybe paxil isn't making a dent. Wouldn't it be nice to be a straightforward depressive who takes Prozac and feels like a new person....How to hide from the grips of darkness when I've tried so much already??
> > > Katia
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