Posted by Guy on November 21, 2004, at 18:19:55
Well, after a few weeks of relatively smooth sailing I'm back down in the hole...anxiety, back pain, neck pain and suicidal thoughts. Currently taking 2 mg clonazepam and 5 mg Zyprexa. Sleeping OK but I feel totally hung over all day with big bags under my eyes. Feels like my entire nervous system is breaking down, and I spend a lot of time crying. Too chicken to do the final act, but not wanting to carry on. If there were a euthanasia clinic in town I'd be the first in line...nice warm bed and just drift off to sleep. Seeing my pdoc tomorrow but I know he's tired of listening to me complain so I'm not expecting much. This is the eighth year of mental and physical torture and I keep thinking how unfair this is, not only to me, but also to my wife and kids. Can't wait for it all to end.
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