Posted by midwestgirl on November 25, 2004, at 20:38:23
In reply to Borderline Personality Disorder, posted by amy smith on November 25, 2004, at 18:38:10
Hi Amy,
I have BPD too - its not great, but it could be worse (i try to tell myself this every day). Its a pain sharing the letters with bipolar - but its easier using them.
Don't be too discouraged, at least you have an place to start. For me, being diagnosed with BPD meant that I knew I wasn't an out-of-control emotional freak/spoiled princess/hurtful manipulater/crazy b**ch because of ME - its sickness in my head, even though I dont believe that when sometimes. I still feel all those things in rapid cycles and I still hate me and sometimes hurt me, but I know its something I can get help for and hopefully make it better even if I can't stop it altoghether.It sucks to feel like this and I think no one else in the world can hurt/love/feel//need like me, but people do - I'm not alone and neither are you. All I know is that I have a sickness, its real - even if some people don't believe it - and so I'm not some adult who acts like a bratty kid because I'm immature or something - the sickness does that.
I'm on Trileptal, it seems to help my mood swings, but I'm talking to my pdoc about trying Zyprexa which was recommended on this site. I'm also starting DBT (dialectical behavioral therapy) which is supposed to help you to deal with situations better than you normally would. Just get a good therapist who knows about BPD, keep trying meds until you find one that works for you, and dont give up. I've found this site to be very encouraging and I just found it 2 weeks ago - so keep talking.
Midwestgirl
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