Posted by Alecto on December 20, 2004, at 21:08:13
In reply to Re: First post ... tired of hurting., posted by partlycloudy on December 19, 2004, at 21:26:23
Thanks for the support. (:
I've had a pretty rough couple of days ... feeling totally worthless, helpless, hopeless, and useless. I looked at my cat and was able to say that he was the only reason I felt life was worth living. I wanted to stay under the covers and cry for days ... but I can't let myself cry more than a few tears at a time. I'm afraid that if I start, it will never stop. Intellectually, I know this isn't true ... but I'm terrified of being swept away by a flood of pain.
I'm going on vacation starting tomorrow, and won't be back until January 3rd. I have my appt. with my psychiatrist a couple days after that, so I'll let you know what happens there. I think I made the wise choice in not trying to change my meds before spending concentrated time with family ... even though I'm in pain, I know what's going on.
*sigh*Hope to be feeling better in the new year.
poster:Alecto
thread:431819
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