Posted by linkadge on December 28, 2004, at 12:00:06
In reply to Re: For Linkadge » linkadge, posted by olysi79 on December 27, 2004, at 18:42:59
I've taken about 10 different benzo's to which I built complete tollerance to in 2-3 weeks. There is no point in me even initiating a benzo anymore. As well as atenolol which helped physical anxiety but worsened mental anxiety and panic.Thats what docotors think though. YOu're just anxious. I honestly believe I am brain dammaged weather I am anxious or not. To me it is so clear. Do you tell a woman who has found a lump in her breast that she is probably just anxious and imagining things ??
I have perceptual distortions that are sound very simiar to what my friend is suffering post-LSD.
They interfere with my ability to walk, speak clearly, think, see, body convulsions, twiches etc.I'm really not an idiot, and I'm really not psycotic. There are only two possabilites. 1) I have a brain tumor. 2) these horrable, permanent side effects are a result of the medications I've been playing around with for the last 5 years.
I have to wait 4 months between psychiatrists visists. Regular docotors will only prescribe SSRI's and antipsychotics. The hospitals leave me more suicidal, to the point where I spent the whole day strolling the halls looking for a way to kill myself (ropse knives left around etc)
I just wish I were dead on an everyday basis.Linkadge
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