Posted by Dan Perkins on January 5, 2005, at 14:44:23
In reply to Re: tired of meds, posted by thinkfast on January 5, 2005, at 14:23:53
This may not be at all what you are talking about, but . . .
I actually feel the same way about certain side-effects and withdrawal. When I started Parnate, I would get very dizzy sometimes when I stood up and I would start to black out. I never actually fainted but I came close on a few occasions. And I really liked it.
The reason why I think I liked this was because I finally had a physical symptom that matched how I felt inside. One of the hardest things I have found about depression is that I can feel suicidally depressed, as miserable as any human being could feel, within inches of taking my own life in some violent manner, yet if I walk outside to the rest of the world I look completely fine. When I came close to fainting those few times, I felt like my depression was finally manifesting itself in some way outside of my brain where others could see it.
As far as withdrawal, I have on occasion gone cold turkey when I knew that it would cause some kind of negative effect on me. Why? I think because I feel so numb and dead to the world on some medications that I thought that having some negative withdrawal symptoms would make me feel something again. I think it is sort of the reason why some people cut themselves.
OK, that's it for me. Perhaps a bit too much information there . . .
> huh...I feel better when I just start a med and have side effects and also when I withdrawl. What the hell is all that about? Brain zaps are great!!!
poster:Dan Perkins
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