Posted by thinkfast on January 11, 2005, at 7:16:45
I'm so freegin confused...none of the meds I've been on have worked...there is no psychosis, but I having a hard time seperating fact from fiction. I've read too much and there is no certainty with my diagnosis. I question the whole thing. Questioning everything. Effexor wasn't working well enough in my eyes so I started tapering down off of it by my own accord. Down from 112 to 75 for a few days now. There's a mental clarity that has came with it, but I'm also in what I would call a manic state. I have no care for anything. Don't care what happens, or what I say, what I do, if I get in trouble..none of it. Every time I have quit an AD my mind goes into hyper drive. What does this mean? Soooo confused. Wondering if I'm bi-polar or maybe I'm just obsessing too much, dunno. Got a friend that is was recently Dx'd BP and we think exactly alike almost. It's screwin with my head. My mood does change quite drasticly and for no apparent reason. When this sh*t happens I see things in a totallly different way. A walking contradiction(as green day says). There is no middle ground and that is all I want. I see my new Pdoc on the 18th. He is of the opinion that effexor is not right for me, for whatever reason I'm not sure of. He isn't sure if a stimulant is the right way to go either, and I agree with him now on that one. Just want to feel level headed, that's all. Paxil, effexor, remeron, trozadone, all didn't work for sh*$. On seroquel for sleep, which I don't care to be on anymore cuz of weight gain and the hangover. What is another possibility I can try? Racing thoughts, obsessions, anxiety, anger, impulsiveness, lack of motivation, scatterbrained, etc...And it's all getting worse. Don't know what they're going to give me or what exactly I have. The Dx's never seem right, or I'm just looking for an exact answer...again, I don't know which is true. Any thoughts? Think klonipin is a good idea...I self medicated with that last week, and also tried valium and both seemed to work well. Maybe a mood stabilizer? AhhH!!!!!!! Let me know....peace
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