Posted by TamaraJ on February 27, 2005, at 8:24:11
In reply to Re: I don't blame you :-( » TamaraJ, posted by Dinah on February 27, 2005, at 0:43:43
It's not silly at all! I am the same way with my pdoc - almost shaking in my boots when I have to tell him a med isn't working and put forward my own suggestion. And, he takes it the same way as yours :-( but eventually (sometimes) comes around :-). Anyay, what I did the last two times I had to ask for a new med was I told him I knew some people who had taken a particular med and had done very well on it or that some people had suggested that such in such a med would be a good match for me. I now leave the internet out of it, unless it is to say that I did look up some basic info on what people had recommended.
Actually, if you are in the U.S. you wouldn't need a prescription for L-Tryptophan. It is sold over the counter in there. It would mean dosing yourself, but, if you decided to pursue it, both Larry Hoover and Jas (because she has been through a dosing schedule) could help guide you I'm sure. At least it is an option that is available.
As for the people who are mad, they will get over it (I'm sorry if that sounds harsh). You need to think of you and getting your depression under control and getting through this. That is the most important thing IMO. And, until they have been through what you are going through, they can't begin to understand the toll it takes on a person, including their self-esteem.
Strength to you Dinah. You are in my thoughts.
Tamara
P.S. My proactivity is a very recent phenomanon. After bad responses to a number of meds, I started trying to be a bit more proactive and assertive. And, my new found assertiveness in other areas of my life, well . . . time will tell if I can continue down that road (I hope so, but I know me only too well!).
> This may sound silly, but I'm afraid to ask for a prescription for anything else. My pdoc really sounded annoyed that my therapist had suggested a specific type of medication. I probably shouldn't have mentioned the source of the idea. And even more annoyed that I knew what Cymbalta was, and how similar it was to Effexor in what it targeted. He asked how I knew what Cymbalta was, and didn't sound happy that I was active on an internet bulletin board.
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> If I were feeling stronger, I might feel up to facing his irritation again, but I don't feel that strong. I think I'd rather look for a new doctor, but I rather like this one in a lot of ways, and the pickings aren't good. I've already fled the two that are considered the best psychopharmacologists in the area because they were rotten matches for me, personality-wise.
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> So many people are mad at me right now... That's the trouble with depression. You're least willing to be proactive when you most need to be.
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