Posted by Spriggy on March 1, 2005, at 15:43:55
If I had $10 for every question I've asked lately, I'd be RICH by now. I know.. My regards to all of you who have been kind of enough to indulge me and answer my questions.SLS- I've said it before but you seem to know your stuff.. Maybe you can give me some insight here.
I see the dr. tomorrow. it's not a pdoc- like I said before, unless you admit yourself into the psych ward, you can't see a pdoc around here for at least 3 months.
Probably if I would run naked through the freeway, I could get in sooner, but because my husband wouldn't approve, I'll refrain from that step.
Now.. onto the question.
I assume you know my situation by now since you always are kind enough to respond to my posts.
The pdoc in the psych ward told me a few things (forgive me if you already know this- you smart man you):
1) I had akathasia and need NOt to be on an SSRI again. EVER. He was pretty emphatic about that one.
2) We could try out a SNRI like Cymbalta but he said, " there's a possibility you will have a similar reaction."
Okay.. saying that to me is like asking me if I wouldn't mind trying to die and burn in Hades for a few days. So I am terrified to even attempt Cymbalta. What I experienced on Wellbutrin and Lexapro was horrific and would rather poke needles into my eyeballs.
So.. pdoc said:
1) There is a possibility you have Bipolar 2 (dad with bp) and you may need mood stabilizer.
He said this in "passing" while looking at his watch probably thinking about his turkey sandwich waiting for him.
I said, " so what would you do for that then?"
Once again looking at his watch he says, " well there's depakote but you will gain weight and I knwo you're a woman who wouldn't want that. There's a few other options.. lamictal but there's a rash risk."
Then he left. I mean he just got up, said " gotta go" and that was it.
I was discharged and told to see my dr. when I got home.
My dr. is more clueless than I am. If I asked my dr. for a horse traquilizer, I would get it.
I have an appointment tomorrow with this doctor.
I am still on low dose Klonopin ( today am actually skipping the morning dose to see how I do without it until bedtime).
I am still feeling a bit strange, having some minor agitation/restlessness.
I *think* at times I feel normal and then I suddenly feel that old dark depression hang over me. It doesn't last like it did before. It comes and goes.
It is apparent to me I am cycling. I ain't talking about exercise bike either.. I mean going from feeling good, to normal, to anxious, to depressed, to starting this all over again.
I am losing weight despite the fact that I am actually eating again. I suppose it's because my body is under such stress my metabolism thinks i"m running a 25k.
ANYWAY (am I rambling? maybe that's another symptom?), WHAT would you suggest?
Would Lamictal alone be beneficial for the mood instability and depression?
Should I take a risk and try the Cymbalta??
Should I just stay on the Klonopin and pray to God I get "normal" one day again soon?
Another thing pdoc mentioned was neurontin. I don't understand what that would be for- my dad takes it for diabetic neuropathy and it makes him hallucinate. So I'm not a big fan of that route either.
Somebody who has a clue tell me what I should tell my doctor tomorrow..
Thanks!
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