Posted by Spriggy on March 6, 2005, at 19:08:53
In reply to Re: BP II and anxiety??????, posted by qbsbrown on March 5, 2005, at 22:57:08
Well qbrown,
We could be twins it sounds like.They *think* I *might* have BP 2. It was more of a suggestion than a diagnosis.
I think it's because 2+2=4 and my father is bp and I had a bad reaction to SSRI's.
SSRI's make me have serious cycling/mood swings. I don't know if manic is the word since I don't feel GOOD.. but I feel SUPER edgy, anxious, irritated, like I want to kill myself.
Not the good mania that sends you shopping and not sleeping.
Anyway, right now, they tried me on Depakote ( I do not like it though) and I am taking .25 Klonopin twice a day. I've actually been skipping the morning dose lately and only taking it at night and have been doing okay.
I figure if I stay on a really low dose like that, it shouldn't be too hard to come off of.
This week I will be requesting Lamictal from my doctor. The Depakote made me feel weird, gave me heartburn and had me up all night.
No thanks- not to mention I don't want to get fat and lose my hair-- I could maybe take one or other but I wouldn't look good bald AND fat.
So, Lamictal may be what helps me too since it helps you.
Right now, I seem to be okay with anxiety- no full blown panic attacks but I do still notice that horrible knot in the pit of my stomach throughotu the day.
I can leave the house though and function almost at a "normal" me level.
The depression is not as bad as it was but it seems to just be "lingering" there.. Like, if I thought about it long enough, I could fall right into the dark pit.
I try to stay occupied (okay, maybe it's called denial)..
But I realize Klonopin alone won't help with the mood instability or depression and yet, I can't have most standard AD's without wigging out totally.
So Lamictal seems to be my next option. Let's just hope my doctor will agree with me.
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