Posted by Jeroen on March 9, 2005, at 9:47:31
In reply to Re: Jeroen, don't hurt yourself » Jeroen, posted by SLS on March 9, 2005, at 6:41:45
i think its schizophrenia or schizoaffective disorder, it started at age 14 years old, ive been untreated with no help for like 5 years then at age 20 i started geodon 20 mg for a period of 3 weeks, it gave me tardive dyskinesia, uncontrolled eye movement and blinking
im 6 months of the dog po*p (sorry bob) and still have it, bitt less but it still bothering me a lot
ive read 50% who take GEODON get tardive dyskinesia, even after taking is several weeks
i fel in love with a girl, right when i got this TD she wanted to make love with her, at that time i coudnt keep my eyes open
and i had to decline her request, because in this condition i dont want to make love with anyone!!!i felt really good at the age of 14 years old i went out a lot in weekends, had very much fun with friend, then it suddenly happened, i felt watched, was scared to go out, the fun was GONE!
things in school went from good to evil, worse and very bad
i could have a kick *ss youth but no, something bad happened to me, i almost got an answer to my problem, then this TD happened to me and destroyed my social life..
its the second time my luck is destroyed, first my youth, because i could have gone out a lot and had a lucky happy life, normal life
now age 20 everything was ok i started geodon and now another happyness with this girl has been destroyed..
as you can see, i have reasons to kill myself, i am even affraid to tell my doctor i got sick at the age of 14 years old, now that im 20 my future has been detroyed aswell by taking geodon
she like me and we could have had a nice relationship for a while
i dont want to kill myself yet... im considering going to hospital and try clozaril but my doc said yesterday, that this medicine has too much negative things and hes not behind it..but what if my TD gets reversed? what are my odds?
i really do beleive my odds are 0% to get better because what is happening to me MUST be a test from god or i must have done something wrong!
poster:Jeroen
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