Posted by barbaracat on March 26, 2005, at 0:27:41
In reply to Re: Cymbalta - teensy weensy dose still working great! » barbaracat, posted by KaraS on March 25, 2005, at 22:09:17
Dear Kara,
Here's what I think, from my my honest heart. We may call them 'mood stabilizers', anti-anxiety meds, whatever, but whatever it takes to soothe a broken heart. There is a certain kind of sensitivity that I think you and I and many others share that is called 'too sensitive'. We are indeed raw nerves. Canaries in the coal mines. Probably in another time and place we would be called priestesses or shamans. For now, we're 'too sensitive'. Someone has to keep this world an honest place.If doxepin does it for you, amen sister. For me, my drug of choice is a nice opiod. But that isn't quite legal, and so I'm confined to what is. I trutly believe this: whatever allows you a good night's sleep, whether moral issues resolved or chemically induced, is worthwhile. If you can laugh honestly and love unreservedly, whether the object is animal or human, Amen to that. The times we live in create bizarre ways of coping. If we can find a community of friends in this world of suffering anyway, well, how can we ask for more? However, we CAN ask for more when we're not getting what we need. We settle far too easily when it comes to the happiness we deserve.
My personal feeling is that few of us on this hard road are getting what we need from the medical community because they're suffering too. They don't have the training or the finances. Our current drug remedies are pitiful and inadequate and dicated by big business. So we have to keep seeking, whatever it takes, and NEVER stop keeping the faith. There are SO MANY of us out there thinking we're alone and it's tragic. I've come to believe that there is not one single person alive who doesn't feel this pain and yet still believes we deal with it all alone. Is it any wonder that the immensity of this world causes sensitive souls to suffer terribly? BUT here we are, living in a time when chemistry can indeed work magick.
This board can help and I know that if you're experiencing true bipolar mixed states, you've come to the right place for immediate answers. But don't expect a one-size fits all easy answer. Books, songs and biographies don't get written about us going through this stuff for no reason.
Keep on searching for that chemical and spiritual spark that balances you no matter how much it takes. For me it's lithium and tiny specks of Cymbalta. It's meditating, dancing and eating pure bunches of vegetables and drinking spring water when I can, loving my critters, friends and husband - when I can. I can't always, but I'm greatful for the times I can.
My hormones were royally screwed but I shelled out good money I didn't have to test them and treat them and boy, I'm glad I did. All these things are my path but it never stops. It's not just drugs but drugs to help me keepin' on. May we all find happiness, may we all find our path. Love, BarbaraCat
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