Posted by banga on March 31, 2005, at 9:09:23
In reply to Re: please help ... tell me what is going on » Maxime, posted by SLS on March 31, 2005, at 6:27:33
I'm so sorry you are having such a bad time!! Please hang in there!!
I am taking desipramine along with other meds and I have found it very helpful. We are all of course different but SLS is right, it maybe just a stage of your body getting used to the med--though I am sure you already know that, you have been through so much...
It is so heavy at the bottom, I have been in a similar place, been in the hospital for it and incapacitated to work. though i would never claim I know exactly how you feel. Please hang in there, with time I did manage to pull myself out of that pit. Now with the help of medication (primarily the Abilify I think, though each piece seems to give me something) I marvel each day that my day does not consist of trying to resist a constant, magnetic like pull downwards into depression. How can one be so full of pain, yet so very empty at the same time. Then, at some point, I felt like someone suddenly put solid ground under my feet, the pull downward stopped. I almost feel like I need to jump up and down, to feel the solidity of the ground. I do have moments--but only moments!! of darkness, and anxiety (though really I SHOULD feel anxious, with a dissertation hanging over my head)but these are moments, not days or weeks of agony in pain and despair.
Do keep sharing with us, I would like to help out.
B.
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