Posted by notfeelingthebest on April 14, 2005, at 18:31:03
In reply to Re: klonopin and mood stabilizing more thoughts » notfeelingthebest, posted by tendency on April 14, 2005, at 17:17:35
> thought of a few more comments..
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> > - the feeling of absolute relief: wears off.
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> this would be expected. no state will last forever - and if it did (thank god they don't) you'd probably burn your brain out.
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> > - the diminished anxiety that is making you more outgoing: wore off for me.
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> are you / were you in therapy during this time? my therapist made a good point. often, when these meds are taken they will remove the physical cause of symptoms but not the psychological ones. At first, the removal of the physical symptoms is so novel and welcome that there effectively is no 'room' for the psychological conditions that contribute. Over time, however, as the novelty wears off, the psychological patterns will re-assert themselves which in turn can bring about a return of symptoms. Meds alone will never remove all the symptoms in my opinion, the physical and psychological are so intertwined. I don't mean to sound patronizing..just wanted to share some thoughts that I've seen to be true in my case.
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> > The unfortunate thing about benzos for most people is that they are a kind of "flowers for algernon" type drug. Wouldn't it be great if all the bad side effects (memory, clumbsiness)
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> only been on the 10 days but so far ive no side effects..
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> > You get so used to it, and you don't actually "feel" it, so you begin to think that it is having no effect anymore. This was my experience so I decided to quit. Others find it hard, I didn't - although my life affords me the time to take holidays where I can taper off meds in peace.
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> glad to hear it was not difficult for you to wean from.
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I personally don't really need a therapist to talk to. I guess some people require it, and others might find talking to someone comforting. Our "problems" and the medications we take have a bit of a stigma attached, so its not like you can just discuss it openly and freely without harming your rep. Even constantly badgering your close friends/family is a total downer so... I prefer personal contemplation.My experience with psychologists has been all negative. They take forever asking about your family and blah blah blah. Obviously, they tend to favour the theory that our problems our environmental; not hereditary. And when you tell them about your abnormal behaviour, they love to respond "well what do you consider normal?" It's as if you're imagining your problems and if you could just have that monumental epiphany they're always telling you about, you will set yourself free. WRONG. Ok, if your uncle abused you, then its environmental. Otherwise, you can't just think your way out of the hole you're in - if your problems are in any way similar to mine. Nonetheless, yes, your therapist did make a good point. But where do you go from there?
Pdocs are a little better because they're actually legitimate professionals, but they always seem to have their favourite drugs that you just HAVE to try. It doesn't seem to concern them that throughout all these lengthy trials they have lined up for you, you actually have a life that you're trying to manage. You can't afford to wigg out one day, and then act like nothing happened the next. Contrary to what they tell you, people actually are judging you constantly; are very perceptive of odd behaviour; and will lose respect for you if they see you as being inept.
Ideally I'd like to find "Dr. Prescribe-away" and do my own research and mixing and matching with a little advice from say... the general consensus of about ten pharmacists. The goal being: to find the magic vitamins that bridge the gap between my genetics and normal people.
Whoopsie, another essay. I'm taking dexedrine too (sorry).
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