Posted by linkadge on April 26, 2005, at 10:21:04
In reply to Re: to play the devil`s advocate, posted by ed_uk on April 26, 2005, at 9:07:36
I am at the point where I don't think that medications do anything. I have lost all faith in them.
I've said it before but all they do is distract me from what the real problems are.
Think of it this way:
If you go to the doctor with an excruciating pain in your leg, the first thing they do isn't prescribe morphine and send you on your way.
(well maybe it is, I don't know)Hopefully, they would do some x-wrays or something to try and pinpoint the source of the problem. The pain is there for a reason. Sure it feels great/empowering to pop a pill and have the pain go away, but if the underlying symptom is not addressed, then the medication will never solve the problem. Worse yet, you may build up a tollerance, and require more medication.
It is like saying that everyone in physical pain, has an "endorphen-chemical imballence".
Likewise, mental pain (in most cases) is there for a reason. It is telling us something.
For me, it was telling me I was working too hard in school. Unfortunately, in this rat race of a society, telling a teacher or employer that you are getting depressed from the demands, simply menas that the rewards go to the ones who are dealing with the demands. We have created a society where saying "no" brings failure or shame.
Anyhow, I was meant to feel that failure to perform was a problem with my brain chemistry, so I got on the medication merry-go-round.
Oh sure, even cocaine can temporarily ward of fatigue, hunger, and steals one to intelectual effort, (it even boosts BDNF!). But the superhuman it creates is in a very dangerous position.
Cause once that little demon pops into your head saying "you don't need to fix the problem, you can just pop a pill instead" Then we are in trouble, cause a part of that demon will always be with us.
Thats probably what I am here. It is a fix for me, an escape. For a while, I can buy into it all over again. I can feed that little demon with new drug names, and my imagniation can tantelize me with how some new drug would change my life. I imagine all the things I would do if I was on that drug. Perhaps thats where the placebo effect begins.
Its the age old "the grass is greener on the other side of the hill" A new drugs is only good when it is novel. It's effects maybe only last a month at best, then I need a mew one so that I can believe again for a while.
Perhaps I havn't found the right drug yet, or is that again just another manifestation of my imagination?
Linkadge
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