Posted by Maxime on May 14, 2005, at 0:16:36
In reply to Re: Thank you CK1, posted by Phillipa on May 13, 2005, at 17:47:25
> Maxime, I'm afraid to ask, but does that mean you are feeling better and your meds are finally working? Fondly, Phillipa
Hi Phillipa. Well all the physical symptoms I was experiencing are gone (muscle soreness, painful joints) but the fatigue remains. The Advair may have done something to my adrenal system ... who knows. Also, many people talked about gaining weight on the med.
The irritability is all gone.
The depression and suicidal thoughts remain. But I only re-started the Parnate a week ago so I will have to wait and see. I'm at 40 mg and need to get to 80-100 mg. But at least this time no side effects like when I retried it in February.
I think I will always have depression despite the Parnate because of external factors: my caloric intake; I'm jobless; I'm living with my mom and we don't get along; my constant feelings of worthlessness associated with my eating disorder.
But if I can get up to 80 mg of Parnate and stay there for a few weeks, I HOPE I will feel some improvement. And some improvement is better than none because with that comes hope.
If CK1 hadn't made that post, I would never have thought about the Advair even though I know cortisone/steriods can mess up a person with depression or BP. But I was busy planning to end my life. I had a date picked out and everything.
So that is where I am right now. I really need to find a therapist. I've been waiting for over a year now.
Maxime
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