Posted by hypersloth on May 26, 2005, at 22:17:25
In reply to Re: Please Help - Very Frustrated with Panic.. » hypersloth, posted by 4WD on May 26, 2005, at 16:09:20
Marsha - I wish I had an answer, and ask this...sometimes outloud several times each month of my life. I am nowhere near as bad as you, but yes I do have anxiety all day. I was on the way to work today , and because it was sunny out I started to wig out. So I called someone on my cell to take my mind off of things, but still felt VERY anxious like I was going to faint.
When I have panic - it feels like everything is WRONG. EVERYTHING annoys me VERY badly, and I feel like I am going to die or go crazy..and I almost hit another attack today but luckily just had a major anxiety attack.
My anxiety lasted throughout most of the day, and I just bounce my leg behind my desk while I try to juggle 50 things at one time. Probably the thing I need the most. I was busy all day until about 10pm and am tired now, drinking coffee and smoking some cigs before I goto bed.
Yes I sleep pretty good...my girlfriend would say otherwise but I can fall asleep just about anywhere at any time. (look at my name..hypersloth) I feel always anxious or tired..
The panic comes when I feel Tired and anxious, or worse..when I am FULLY rested ...I get really anxious and have to mellow out by taking Xanax.
I keep the meds to a minimum that will allow me to function to a minimum. Once I am at work I seem fine, but when they occur outside of the house all I want to do is do whatever I think will make them go away...like leaving for home etc. The unfortunate part is , last weekend I started to have one at home so I immediately left to make it worse..yes I purposely made them worse till Ialmost fainted driving then turned around and when I got home they were fine..no more panic..the xanax finally kicked in, and instead of starting my day at 10am like I wanted to, I finally got to where I wanted to go at 2:30pm. :(
Medical Journals state that panic attacks (the fight or flight feeling) can only last 20 minutes for a person before they 'crash'. Bullsh*t. This is not true and they can last much longer. So I believe you when you say you have them almost all day. Many days I have anxiety that is so bad that I feel 'wrong' or 'off' all day - plus the extreme anxiety like I am afraid of something but there is nothing going on. I think that is the part that REALLY messes with my tiny brain, the fact that I should have something causing this..know there is nothing causing this...and yet - am having this problem!
Maybe we are all dreaming and will wake up and talk about this HORRIBLE dream we had. I can muster up some crazy, horrible dreams...and my real life is worse. I am at my wits end. I am going to see a headshrink in a couple of weeks...and it's $160 for 30 minutes! Does this sounds right?
I've tried excercise 4WD - and it doesn't work. Yes if I am anxious and do something it helps, but it doesn't stop the panic attacks from coming..and if I over do it, I feel like I can't catch my breath and then start to freak out and have to calm myself down and immediately get my hands into something like cleaning or working on something on the computer to keep it from turning into a panic attack :(
Maxine - if you find out anything please post it here. The only thing I find on the net seems to be garbage lately..Fred - Yes I take .5mg of Xanax on a daily basis lately, and for a year and a half while on lexapro I didn't have to take more than 1 or 2 pills during that WHOLE time! Prior to that I was jumping back and forth with different meds and off meds - and of course taking xanax 'as needed' which of couse we all know..isn't needed once it finally kicks in and the panic is over - but at least it keeps the 'repeat' attacks from occuring as I do have those also.
Does anyone know if there is an injection form of something that you can get that will act RIGHT away when a panic attack occurs. SERIOUSLY if someone told me if I chopped my finger off, it would stop...I would! I even go as far as to dig my keys into my leg or something equally perverse to create pain so that the panic will stop or at least subside enough for my brain to regain control of itself eventually instead of leading into a breakdown that results in me calling 911 or having someone take me to the hospital..
There is something in our foods or environment causing this, and I believe there is a great deal of cover-up occuring. If I find out that this is true and people knew this was a possibility but didnt care because they wanted to make $$$..I swear I will track them down if I am still young enough when the 'truth' comes out - or if I haven't already gone completely nuts. :( I've even asked doctors if that is possible and they say NO..but I seem to be sliding into a much worse situation and need serious help.
I used to think I was the most level headed, intelligent person in most crowds, but now feel like a big freak, loser, gimp. :(
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