Posted by jay on June 8, 2005, at 21:15:04
In reply to Re: This shocked me !!, posted by linkadge on June 8, 2005, at 20:39:11
> Again, I am no john Nash, but it has got to the point where my ability to continue in school is going to be compromised by adequate treatment.
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> No treatment, I do well, but I want to kill myself every day. Treatment, I feel better, but I am a zombie, and quickly become depressed at the prospects of not being able to complete what I have started.
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> It is discouraging, and doctors don't seem to see the whole picture.
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> I still get asked dumb things like, "you do well in school, what are you depressed about ??"
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> I don't know why I want to kill myself, I just do. It is as simple as that. I've just had it with doctors and 8 minaute appointments, and the situation just doesn't seem to be getting any better.
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> Doctors keep asking me why I stop my medication, and I tell them things like: "I have a life to live". You guys think you're so smart cause you can modify one little aspect of human emotion, but hey, we don't need to pay any attnetion to the fact that you will indeed become a druling vegetable.
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> To me 99% of ssri effect is just a lot of fluf.
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>Linkadge, I got 90 percent in a Graduate level social research course. It involved qualatative and quantatative (mostly math, stats, number crunching) research, and I am (and was) on a big mix of a.d's, a.p.'s, etc. The other thing is, I am usually *horrible* with math, hate numbers, and after 10 or so years of heavy medication, did very well in this course. This was at the University of Toronto, the biggest in Canada. I knew many fellow students who where on medication doing Grad work too, all very well. (You *had* to be good at the U of T, or else they would boot you out!!!..mental illness or not.) Sorry, but I do not, for one minute, believe medication prevents a person from doing good school work.
Jay
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