Posted by cockeyed on June 21, 2005, at 0:13:57
In reply to Re: anyone remember what they were like B4 meds? » sleepygirl, posted by sedona on June 20, 2005, at 19:30:10
I became disabled by heart disease in '98. My condition was probably initially mis-diagnosed because I was able to "pass" a stress test. After an Angioplasty in 5/98 during which I was completely aenesthesized, my personality seemed to change. To a point that my everythought seemed to be re: death, futility, misery, useless-ness. etc. If not for meds and therapy I seem to cycle into periods of intense and constant depression. It's as if my mind were attempting to consume itself. With meds I can almost face the morning. I hate getting up. I now function best late at nite and feel comfortable going to sleep at 3-4 AM. One thing I notice: my family seems to prefer me depressed. Maybe I'm nuts, but when I feel good I like to do my own thing...I'm not much of a family person. I especially enjoy hyper cycles because I don't give a s**t about stuff I agonize over when I'm down in the hole. B4 meds Iwas constantly haunted by the death of everything and the worthlessness of living. I recently had a bad experience with generic lexapro and have gone back to prozac. cockeyed.
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