Posted by KayeBaby on June 24, 2005, at 13:45:28
In reply to Re: Going to the doctor today » linkadge, posted by Jazzed on June 24, 2005, at 9:59:32
My Goodness! It's not as if you have been bad or criminal. The meds obviously were not helping or you would have continued. You are just doing what any creature on this earth would-trying to feel and function as well as you can. No reason to feel guilty and no reason for him to be anything less than compassionate.
I have been through the wringer with Dr.s-really no luck at all. I have had nothing but anywhere from traumatic to just plain poor care. I gave up for a long time when I really needed help most and just muddled through as best I could. I tried just goint to one after another hoping that the odds would have me find one decent one at some point. This tactic lasted for two Dr's before I quit.
Finally I just kept my ear to the ground, asked around until I finally saw one that seemed to be a safe bet. Finally at age 36 I found a Dr. that is everything a Dr. should be. He gets that I, more than any, care about my life and health. I am not irresponsible about drugs but absolutely need them to function at any sort of acceptable level. Jeez-the difference is remrkable in me being properly medicated and not.
I am a drug seeker!! I am looking for a drug that will allow me to live my life! I am looking for exactly the medication that will release me from the prison of my mind so that I can get on with it! I am guilty. Fortunately I am also without predjudice..it doesn't matter to me the drug, therapy or whatever it takes. I want it.
My thoughts are with you. Please don't let anyone make you feel guilty for trying as best you can to live. you deserve a medal, my friend.
Peace,
Kaye
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