Posted by alienatari on July 5, 2005, at 6:52:57
Hey all. I saw my psychatrist today. I had a bad week last week. I was very suicidal and becoming psychotic according to my GP or something like that. I cut up my arm the other night (i dont know why I cut myself, i only do it when i get really depressed). And I had a plan to kill myself, and I didnt do it thankfully (i just cut myself up some more instead, deep too. I think it will scar and I dont want scars.) For some reason when I cut the psychological pain is less.
Anyway, I was put back on zyprexa but only 5mg. This was last week (my GP did it after a phono convo with my pdoc and he told her to do it). Im feeling a LOT better. Still depressed a little bit but not as much. The paranoia is still here and so are the voices I hear but its kind of complex my situation.
Anyway, he basically said even though he has the information from my other pdoc's and hospital admissions it's too early to say but he believes that I am not bipolar and I probably have a psychotic disorder (I guess he is leaning towards paranoid schizophrenia, but I really dont know.)
So he said basically at the momoent I have as follows:
OCD (and a pretty bad case of it, its basically my main problem)
Unipolar depression
Anxiety with psychotic features
Psychotic episodesThe meds I am on now are as follows:
clomipramine - 150mg
olanzapine - 5mg
diazapam - 10mg
valproate - 1000mgI asked why am I still on valproate if I am not bipolar and he said because it can help potentiate the effect of the antidepressant and neuroleptic that I am on. He is also going to give me blood tests every 3 months, im not sure exactly what he is testing for but I feel better about this as my old pdoc tested me once every 2 years, if I was lucky lol.
Anyone else here relate to psychotic problems or paranoia? Id really love to speak to others that have these problems. Thanks guys and take care everyone.
Chris.
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