Posted by rod on July 10, 2005, at 12:20:58
Hi there....
Well. I thought about depakote, but hmm, I am not sure if thats a good idea.
If I think back, 4 years ago (AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRGH), I was on Clomipramine. Its wasnt great, but I did function somewhat.AND while this time, I was in a local support group. And they noticed very positive changes while I was on Anafranil.
One of my main problems, is social life. I am lonely. I want to meet new persons. But, most of the time I have this "unfriendly" look. Many "friends" told me this, when they are drunken (when they are honest...)
So its really hard to get to know people, because they (most of the time) have the impression I dont like them... I am not aware of this. I dont feel unfriendly. Its like a "split thing". I feel friendly, in a good mood, but my face shows something else....
Often when I greet people or say goodbye, they react somewhat unfriendly...
I am sure this is just a symptom of depression. at all.BUT, when I was on Clomipramine, this was different. When I looked at peoples face, they smiled back. If I greeted them, they smiled back. And if I was the one who was talking in my local support group, people had a little smile on their face....
There are no real options left anymore. I reviewed my "tried drug sheet" and apart from Amitriptyline and Nortriptyline (which pooped out quite much :-( ) Clomipramine was the 3rd "best"
What else could I try? Seroqel? hmmm I guess it would make me numb. like Zyprexa.
Depakote? would dampen me down too much I guess.
MAOIs? there is just crappy Moclobemide here... I dont have the money to import Parnate or Nardil. And some people say they also "poop" out after some time.And I hope I will loose some weight like I did when I was on Anafranil....
I tried:
Prozac
Reboxetine
Amitriptyline
Zyprexa
Celexa
mianserine
Clomipramine
Moclobemide
Remeron
St. Johns Wort
Taneptine
Lamictal
Zoloft
Lexapro
Amisulpride
Neurontin
Xanax
Memantine
Amantadine
Nortriptyline
Doxepine
Buspar
Ritalin
Concerta
DHEA / 7-Keto DHEA
Reminyl
Exelon
Zyban
Maprotiline
Aniracetam
Adrafinil
Abilify
Mirapex
Milnacipran
Clonazepam
Diazepam
Diphenhydramine
Pentoxifylline
Nicergoline
Lyrica
Periactin
Comtan
and some I have forgotten I guess :-( anywayI have some Anafranil left. I will introduce it without a pdoc..
Now come and play doctor if you like :-D
I now take
Nortriptyline 100mg
Amisulpride 50mg
Nicergoline 30mg
Pentoxifylline 600mg
Clonazepam 0,25mg (will drop it today)
Lyrica 300mg+ 35mg Clomipramine (will increase to 75mg in a few day, a week I guess)
in the morningSo what do you say? should I drop Nortriptyline ? I'd like to keep it for now.
hmmm wish me luck. really. I need some :-(
My life is crap. I am old, fat and getting bald. And I dont want to make use of me huge stock of Amitriptyline and my mortar... Yes, I bought this stuff for a special purpose... months agoI want to life. Have a girlfirend. have fun. enjoy life.
grrrrrrr I hope Clomi will help me to achieve this, on the long term..
oh well, enough ranting
bye
Roli
poster:rod
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