Posted by TamaraJ on July 12, 2005, at 18:32:46
In reply to Re: sinking » SLS, posted by linkadge on July 12, 2005, at 15:44:04
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I am glad you have made arrangements to see a counsellor, because the therapy will be extremely beneficial. You know, you don't always have to be in control and self-sufficient in all areas of your life. It is not a sign of weakness or a character flaw to ask for help, although I do understand why it is so important for you to be independent and in control. I, too, had to learn at a young age to be relatively self-sufficient, and still have problems asking for help or accepting that some things are just beyond my control. I think that is where therapy comes in - to give us the tools to help us deal with situations that can send us spinning, ruminating and even catastrophizing, and to help us remain, as much as possible, on an even keel and to not panic or beat up on ourselves.
Tamara
> I have never thrown that idea out the window, but I don't have highs. I really and honestly have no highs at all. My mother is bipolar and I've seen highs before.
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> I do ok, then *boom* some sort of panic strikes that lasts for hours, then all of these images and picutures of times of fairure, feelings of being trapped, they are so overwhelming that all I can think about it suicide. They vanish, and I seem to return to feeling normal. I don't feel bipolar, I feel extrordinarily emotionally frail. Under the right circumstances I can get by with no meds, but even small changes in the environment are enought to make me feel out of control. When I was young there was really no mother. Mother was a robot, so I feel that I have to be very self sufficant. If things get out of control, that seems like the only way I can help myself.
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