Posted by bimini on July 23, 2005, at 21:14:21
In reply to does this sound like bipolar disorder? medications, posted by sedona on July 22, 2005, at 12:54:25
I am dx'ed bi-polar and schizo affective and so forth. Effexor knocked me out of coherence, I knew less and less what was going on around me, it caused wild dreams and disrupted sleep. I never want to try another antidepressant again.
Lamictal mellowed the fluctating awareness states, calmed down the gaps, I had to quit that one because of a severe lymph node reaction.
Then I tried Abilify, felt like my head was trying to explode, like a water balloon. I braved out a month long trial, the pain didn't subside.I am now taking two stimulants and sleep like a log despite high dosage. That was working out well until blood pressure went zooming up, now I am doing some complicated reduction, a bit dramatic, especially waking up, WOW.
I am dx'ed having panic disorder, but it is missing its main incredience: panic. I have several attacks every day, no matter where, what, when, how..... I am not aware of all of them. I can't figure what I am dissociating from. I don't become another identity I just go missing. It feels rather pleasant, a pleasant attack then, can't function well through them, motorcontrol is unreliable. Makes my muscles sore and I want to lay down. Through these and anywhere in between I see sticks floating, hovering.
I think I am neither bi-polar nor schizo anything. Maybe someone can invent a disorder just for me? Or better yet, just shut the lights off and let me sleep.
bimini
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