Posted by denise1966 on August 12, 2005, at 15:13:44
Hi,
Had my first ECT session this morning and really don't know what to do next and feel so indecisive about everything.
Around Christmas time I felt the good effects of Seroxat starting to wane so I went to see a psychiatrist privately and told her I wanted to try two things, plan A) was take Nardil (which I don't particularly like) for a month stop it and then take Seroxat, as the seroxat seemed to work better after doing that before for some inexplicable reason. Plan B) was ECT.
On June 22nd I was told I was being made redundant so I decided that being off work was as good as time as any to start having the ECT. I sent a note to my psychiatrist telling her that was what I wanted to do and she went along with it.
She has been off this week and everything was arranged by email.
Now I'm not sure what to do about the ECT, I feel so crap today, not crap because of the memory problems I'm having but because I feel so depressed. I know ECT can take 13 sessions to work but I feel so impatient and indecisive probably part of the depression I know.
So not sure whether to actually go back to plan A, I know if I suggest this to the psychiatrist when she gets back on Monday, if I actually do get to speak to her on the phone, she'll probably be pissed off and she has every right to be. And then I know what I'm like, if she does agree to let me go back to plan A, and I wouldn't blame her if she does put her foot down this time, I'll end up wishing I'd continued with the ECT as soon as I start the Nardil.
I'm constantly worrying about what treatment to try next because I just can't get the impetus to do anything else and then when I get a new medication I start worrying about what to do if that doesn't work.
Help!
Denise
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