Posted by linkadge on August 31, 2005, at 15:04:27
In reply to Re: Linkadge, posted by willyee on August 31, 2005, at 13:29:32
I took worked up to 40mg of parnate over a month and stayed there for about 8 months.
It was good at first, stimulating and rewarding, but it seemed to intensify. My thoughts started to beome darker over the course of time. It started to feel like I had smoked some bad marajuanna.
I found myself thinking constantly of all the things I had done wrong. I felt very guilty about them and found it very hard to find resolution.
It could have been the depression getting worse, and not the parnate at all.
After I had swiched to clomipramine things started to get a lot better. My mood seemed to brighten. It may have just been that it was a better drug for me.
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To answer second question I have tried to go my summer off meds. Doctors say it is unwise, and maybe it is. Some things are a lot better off meds some things are a lot worse.
I too have a lot of obsessions, and become preocupied with thoughts of severe brain dammage etc etc.
I believe the meds have caused some dammage. But I think about killing myself a *lot* so I will probably have to go back on them.
If so, it will probably be a TCA.
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