Posted by Joslynn on September 1, 2005, at 11:26:10
I cannot decide if these past days of anxiety have been caused by...what?
To review, I have been on Celexa, then Lex, since 2001 due to an episode of severe depression and anxiety. I was also on Remeron, but went off that due to weight gain, and was fine without Remeron for a couple years.
Then last year, in the fall, had a mini-episode, short but severe/scary, went back on Remeron too for a couple months. Then went off it (gradually) and was fine until June of this year.
June of this year, due to a relationship issue, I spiraled into another episode. Trouble eating, sleeping, even some passive thoughts of S, etc. Pdoc suggested that I got from 10 Lex to 15 Lex, which I did, and added Remeron 15 mg. My boyfriend and I also talked out the relationship issue.
I taped off the Remeron once in July, got anxious, went back on it, then tried to taper off of it again in August to 7.5 (from 15) down to nothing Friday of last week.
Things went along fine and I was off it for a couple days, then Monday, I started feeling anxious about the future, my relationship, my mental health, the flood, mingling families, if my boyfriend right for me or not, what will happen to me, will I hurt him, will he hurt me, is he too involved with his family, what about those people in the flood, just everything. I started on Remeron 7.5 again Tuesday night.
I realize I am starting my period very soon, so this could be PMS.
My question is...is this anxiety caused just by the good stress and bad stress of opening up myself emotinally in a realtionhsip (and everyone I know is getting married), by PMS, or by those two times this summer I tapered off the Remeron, OR by increasing the Lex from 10 to 15???
However, I have to remember, I went to the higher dose of Lex because of anxiety/depression knocking on the door again...that did come FIRST.
It's so hard to know, and of course my pdoc says, there is no way to say for sure, no definitive answer, but he said that Lex usually only causes anxiety when you first go on it, not going from 10 to 15.
Now I have anxiety about my anxiety. I'm confused. Any ideas about the meds? I am now on 15 Lex and Remeron 7.5. If decreasing the Remeron caused this, how much longer back on it do I need for the anxiety to stop? And why was I ok without it for a couple years? But maybe I am ok now and I am just PMSing? OR because of my therapist's 3-wk vacation.
Thanks.
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